My Bride

I've run for my life to escape this pain.
pretending it doesn't exist. 
Or if it does I don't accept it. 
So I don't have to see that you are my only.
My last chance. But I try to ignore you.
My bridegroom I run from your call. 
But you stay with me and you won't leave me. 
And you love me but I don't want to believe. 
As bitterness floods my veins I try to forget who you are. 
But you continue asking and pleading would you be with me. 
I am here with you. But the times you spend with me have been few and far.
I love you. I want to spend time with you.
I am not another broken fleeting thing. 
Not that obsession you keep locked away in your heart for no one to find. 
I am not that joyless garbage. 
Would you remember and believe? 

my bride!

 I came from heaven to hold you here so that you would know with your with your heart. 
this cross you took up to follow me is not dead. 
your heart is freezing cold. 
can you even hear it beating anymore.
 My heart breaks for you. 
feel these cracks. As my blood covers you.

 My body!

 I will give you faith to believe. 
Don't underestimate me. 
Boxed yourself in. So no one can see the pain.
I know you my bride.
My love. 
Now I've been screaming Lord make in me a spirit that beats for you alone and there's nothing that can keep me from you.
No. death can't keep me from coming home.