Prayer and worship

In the mornings I have a routine of walking to school. I leave my house at 7:05 am and arrive at my school sometime shortly before 7:45. 3 years ago you wouldn't have caught me dead walking to school in the morning. I'm tired, i want more sleep, and my mom was willing to take me. but now I look forward to it. I started seeing morning walks as an opportunity god has opened in my life. Every morning my walks look different. some days I begin my walk singing alternative rock lyrics. I sing with the music that sounds good to me. I don't usually like singing “WORSHIP SONGS” partly because they are repetitive, but mostly because the words easily slip off my tongue without me reflecting on what I am singing. I've found oftentimes songs that aren't even about “Jesus” leads me to him. I've recently been listening Maclemore. He speaks from his heart, although he has a delusional view of sex with women he speaks about the honest reality of struggling with addiction and sin, that make me realize god is working just as much in his album, as he is in Chris Tomlin's music. What I would like to reflect on today is a very talented man named Josh Garrels. His went out with a girl and they had a typical relationship of new couples, then when the relationship got serious, he proposed, and soon discovered he was still a boy inside. he wasn't the man his wife needed. He was emotionally unable to bear that burden and went into a deep depression. They broke up and their relationship became toxic. To even be around each other generated extreme emotion. Their friends had to keep them away from each other. Eventually she moved on and found another man, after dating for awhile he proposed and she said yes. During this time, for years josh’s heart was throbbing from the pain. He had to pull over when he was driving, having attacks of tears and sadness. So he wrote this song, calling out in his despair his love for his wife. The song is called Ulysses.

If your able, take a listen to this beautiful song

I’m holding on to the hope that one day this could be made right. 

I’ve been shipwrecked, and left for dead, and I have seen the darkest sights. 

Everyone I’ve loved seems like a stranger in the night 

But Oh my heart still burns, tells me to return, and search the fading light. 

I’m sailing home to you I wont be long 

By the light of moon I will press on 

Until, I find, my love 

Trouble has beset my ways, and wicked winds have blown 

Sirens call my name, they say they’ll ease my pain, then break me on the stones 

But true love is the burden that will carry me back home 

Carry me with the, memories of the, beauty I have known 

I’m sailing home to you I wont be long 

By the light of moon I will press on 

So tie me to the mast of this old ship and point me home 

Before I lose the one I love, before my chance is gone 

I want to hold, her in, my arms

So you may think that song has nothing to do with Jesus, and you would be right. But at the same time this song has everything to do with Jesus. This song displays with great passion, a seemingly unrestricted love for this woman. Perhaps even a crazy type of love for this woman. But imagine if this is the love a man can see for his bride, imagine what Jesus feels when he sees us. The amazing love Jesus has for me is so much greater then I can imagine. That is why I sing in the morning. To remember the love. When I finish catching that glimpse then I begin to pray. When I see his love for me, then i'm able to start my day loving others.